I'm not sure why, but I've been thinking about Olivia a lot this week. I think the doctor's visits and upcoming 15 week ultrasound are reminding my of what we went through. It's also because on Friday the doctor revised my due date to March 29th, almost exactly one year from the day Olivia was born (March 19).
I'm SO anxious about the ultrasound in three weeks, and desperately hoping everything will come out "normal".
I was searching Google blogs for amniotic band syndrome and found a number of postings from people who went through similar experiences. The one that touched me the most was "Life After Haleigh", as we went through a very similar situation. As I read it, tears poured down my face and memories of Olivia and holding her tiny body came flooding back.
I'm so thankful that I'm pregnant again, and thankful for all of the people I've gotten support from this year. Someone once told me "you make plans, and god laughs" and that's certainly true in our case. I never imagined how this year would turn out....so many ups and downs. We started the year pregnant, then lost the baby, then sold our house and moved, and now we're pregnant again!
Throughout all of this, my wonderful husband has stood by me. He's been my rock, and my best friend. I am most thankful for having him in my life!
Okay... so, now I am crying. I can't tell you... well, I guess I don't have to tell you what it means to me to find someone else that lost their little girl to ABS. It is absulotely heart breaking to know that I am not alone- yet comforting all at the same time. I am just so sorry that you lost your baby too. It is all just so overwhlemingly heartbreaking.
ReplyDeleteMaybe my your Olvia and my Haleigh are up in heaven together looking down at their moms knowing that we couldn't love them more if we tried....
(((hugs)))
Elizabeth
Haleigh's Mom